RECONCILIATION: YOU CAN’T GO BACK BUT YOU CAN TAKE THE REPEAT

13 Jan
angela at the piano

Four year old me at the piano

Everything either reconciles or it doesn’t reconcile. I’ve considered it a lot.
When you perform a piece of music there’s not much you can do about a wrong note once it’s been played. However, you do need to reconcile with yourself.
In a split second, you’ll either choose to get over it and continue, or allow yourself to be thrown into regret and self-doubt, which renders you helpless and defeated.
There are times when the music repeats. You get another chance. However, it is understood, that the repeat would contain at least a subtle difference. Maybe you will alter the dynamics, or bring out a different voice, add an embellishment, turn or trill.
In life you can’t go back. Just as a note is played right or wrong, you can’t go back to that exact moment in time to correct it. You can only move forward. You may receive an opportunity to repeat in a different moment and hopefully it will reflect an embellishment of grace and maturity.
I performed many pieces at the piano when I was young, devoid of sensitivity, with note and interpretive errors. Sometimes I revisit these pieces and terrible memories of blaring errors, mental glitches, humiliation and discouragement return.
I remind myself; I’m not obligated or destined to repeat the same mistakes. I am old enough, hopefully humble enough, to reconcile where there’s a repeat, accept when there is not, and move forward, more aware and caring as I live, love, and play piano.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

17 Dec

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

I’d like to give everyone a little Christmas gift from my Aunt, Theresa Vecchio, who moved to heaven in June of this year. She opened a Face Book account with the help of her daughter Gina a little over a year ago, when she returned home from the hospital before the holidays.
I found her comments to be gifts….the last of her generation in our family passing on simple gems of wisdom to the next. I hope you enjoy them.

November 10, 2012
Looked at some of the many messages on FB today. Everyone has so many struggles. I feel badly for them. Some are downright scary and mean. Well, here in Arkwright the world is still turning and all we can do is hope for the best and pray that we all feel better. The world still has beauty if we choose to see it.

November 27, 2012
I had a lot of visitors today. Some took my blood, some chatted with me. Yet I liked them all. One fell in love with one of the kittens we have. I told her she can come play with the animals anytime, but she can’t take them home. hahaha. We are decorating for Christmas and I am happy to be home in my favorite chair with my little doggy Midgy on my lap. May you all be as blessed and well. I wish the best for all of you this Holiday season. Try to be happy and don’t let all the commercial silliness bring you down.

December 17, 2012
So comfy at home. Dinner is cooking and the candles are lit. Counting my blessings. Everyone try to remember to slow down and think about what the season is about. Don’t get all upset. I never had much growing up in the Depression, but we had love. Give your love..that gift lasts.

At long last –Day 30 of 30 Days/30 Blogs

1 Dec

And so it ends. On this final day of 30 Days/ 30 Blogs, I’ve managed to begin writing at the early hour of 11 pm as I sit by the fire. At least my final post will appear on time, before the stroke of midnight.
There’s something satisfying about seeing a thing to its end.But then again, that’s just me. I wasn’t always this way. But I like this way better.
This helped me a great deal. I might continue once in a while. But my deadline is soon approaching and it needs all my focus if this manuscript re-write will be completed. It has to be.
But life has to continue amid the deadlines. People need us. The cats need us. And the house doesn’t want to be left undressed for Christmas.
I started to put away the fall/Thanksgiving decorations while my husband, Lary put the lighted houses and green garland on the mantle and our youngest son, Sam, hung the lights outside.
It is the last day of November, going into the last month of 2013, and I wonder what the New Year will bring?
I’m hoping for continued blessings as well as sufficient grace to walk through the tough parts that come. I’m believing for a better focus on what really matters and a lighter grip on what doesn’t.
When I was a child, 2001 was a space Odyssey. Hmmmm

Day 29 of 30 Days/ 30 Blogs Getting Close to the End

30 Nov

It’s the final few miles of any trip that seems the longest, whether you’re in a car travelling or any life journey or race.

I can’t imagine what it’s like to run a marathon or travel to China. Those are long journey’s.

Committing to, and following through on 30 days/ 30 blogs has been long too. So has the manuscript I continue to re-write. Both are coming to an end.

My little grandson Dominick is spending the night. He’s 15 months old. It’s an amazing thing to have a little one in the house again, and take that look at the beginning of a journey once again. Everything is new. Everything has wonder and excitement. To have the chance to watch it through their little eyes is awesome. And humbling. And makes you reflect on how much you miss when you’re older and in so much of a hurry.

Tomorrow, Dominick will discover many new things. My 30 days of blogging will come to a close. 

Day 28 of 30 Days/ 30 Blogs Many good things

29 Nov

There are many good things that made me smile today.
The first, was sitting on the couch with sons watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade while we text the other family members with a plan to go to New York and see the parade once the grand kids are a little older.
It was a beautiful day to travel to Buffalo; cold, sunny, snow on the trees but not the roads…perfect.
Watching our grandson Dominick, toddle from room to room, being adored by his Aunts and Uncles and big cousins, while receiving a call from daughter Amanda and pictures on my phone of grandson Liam playing with his cousins miles away in Maryland…all good things. Even a face time call from our daughter Alyssa from Macon Georgia…And so we were really all together on Thanksgiving Day this year.
I hope in one way or another you’ve enjoyed your family today, even if it was with a kind thought or memory. Happy Thanksgiving Everyone.

Day 27 of 30 Days/ 30 Blogs Thankful

28 Nov

Once again I’ll say, if I haven’t gone to bed yet, it’s still today, not tomorrow, but I feel like saying Happy Thanksgiving now!
I woke up to a beautiful winter wonderland and I’m thankful it looks this nice without having to have had a blizzard to accomplish it.
I’m thankful for my wonderful sister-in-law Terry Zale who is preparing the Thanksgiving feast, even though she didn’t have the day off today.
I’m thankful for face book so I can see both my grandsons faces nearly everyday and watch what they’re doing, even when I can’t be with them.
I’m thankful for my family, especially my husband Lary, because he loves me, likes me most of the time too, and puts up with me. And because he gets up in the middle of the night to feed and let the cats out so I don’t have to.
I’m thankful for my kids who, aren’t kids anymore, but they call or text everyday to let me know they’re thinking of me.
And since I haven’t gone to bed yet, I’m thankful than tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I can wish it to everyone again.
Sweet Dreams

26 Days of 30 Days/30 Blogs Tired

27 Nov

Not only is it way past the deadline for the day, but well past my bedtime. I just keep going, doing these re-writes, trying to redo the time line. I’m exhausted.
I can’t imagine anything good that comes from a quick-fix, but still. This is a long haul.
And this will be a short blog.
It’s faith that keeps me going, keeps me believing that in the end, there will be something good to show for all my hours of work. And I’m thankful. Writing is a privilege.
Just having time to write is a privilege.
Having a family that supports my efforts, with the full knowledge that there is no guarantee of success, is a blessing.
Tomorrow is another day. Maybe I’ll have some fresh, better organized thoughts.

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